Wednesday, April 6
tired. exhausted. dead beat. fatigued. press shift F7 to find how more about how i feel at this present moment. thanks, huiying and mari for teaching me about shift F7 which is a thesaurus, if you didn't know. well now i do, and i find it really handy for copying history essays. waiting for my piano teacher to come. can't be bothered to practice. really just too tired, etc.
okay finished piano. i can't stand myself. i couldn't pry open a container cos i didn't have enough energy. maybe it was all the banging on the piano. my first piece is super loud for about 4 pages. bahh. well now i have a bit more energy to bang on the computer keyboard after eating, so yayness.
school is fine. one could get used to anything.. rushing work feels rather familiar.. mm. really don't know what's so tiring about school. except the strain of being me, i guess. how ironic. wonder if i'd be coping better in science. perhaps not. sometimes it feels like jan and i are worlds apart, when i'm in class. don't see her face, don't hear her voice.. haha. so the only worlds we share are those before and after school. how depressing.
i don't like
her anymore. i know i've made and broken a million resolutions from the start of the year til now, but honestly i can't like her anymore, because of her ridiculously boring hair. maybe she just doesn't have the guts to face up to the scrutiny her funky hair opened her up to. besides, she has this odd way of standing and walking with her shoulders pulled up a bit, which can be read as insecurity/ low self esteem. maybe she's embarrassed of her height or something. see what life does to one - we judge others at a glance, based on how they carry themselves. i know everyone thinks i'm arrogant, yadda yadda gimme a break maybe it's true yes no maybe so maybe i don't care. anyway bottom line is all i admired was her hair, and now it's gone so yes everyone please rejoice i don't like her anymore. although i think her legs are very nice and it's very distracting to have her crossing her legs in lecture with her super short hc skirt.. i'm incredibly jealous!! how can anyone have such nice legs? very very envious. sigh. and now all her friends [ie aman i guess] are gonna smack my face for dissing her new hair style and posture. but i am still certain that she is a perfectly nice person and would make a perfectly nice friend. yaddaaa. i need new eyecandy.
waiting for my favourite song.. and when it plays i sing along; it makes me smile. those were such happy times, and not so long ago. how i wonder where they've gone. recognise this? har har. every sha la la la la, every whoa whoa whoa still shines. every shing a ling a ling that they're starting to sing so fine.. when they get to the part when he's breaking her heart, it can really make me cry.. just like before.. it's yesterday once more.
why when
he's breaking her heart? not fair, this is a sexist song,
she must break his heart. muahaha. so much has changed, and yet one thing never will - my love for all of you, 4/6 and st. marg's. yay!! =D
stupid jean isn't calling yet. :( forever will have come and gone by the time she realises 10 mins are up and she's supposed to call!!! van, i miss your voice. tempted to just pick up the phone and say hi van, i miss you and i love you. but maybe you're at ballet. jan. i know you're busy. but reply my love letter okay? ;) jk. gen - i miss teasing you. my hammie.. hee. hope you're just fine. chris. i miss you a little, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more everyday. but still i miss you and that's never gonna change. and oh. i never stopped loving you, friend of my heart. :) bev - you're so grown up now, wearing makeup and all. so pretty. yet somehow you'll always be the girl i argued with and had a cold war with because we're all such proud arses. ally - fellow song addict and twin of my soul. if it's true that we feel the same things, then i hope you're happier now. serene - hey buddybuddy. i do love you, you know, although i don't really show it. thanks for msging me every day and keeping me company in an odd way through the day.. i will always be right here waiting.. sisters forever. da happening back row - i miss our laughter. so spontaneous. joan singing her jay chou songs. never thought i'd say this, but i do miss her. a lot. miss boss. she's so nice and comfortable to hug, so comforting and assuring to know she's there. huishann. claims she's just pretending to be blur. yeah right. hee. sitiiiii. i see you every week, yay. you've always been such a great friend. i know you really love our class and the coy. :) guides rocks, yay! haha. all right got to stop here.
j'aime et j'espere
it must've been love.
6:20 pm
xoxo
